Felix Alexander: 4 Months

Dear Felix,

Today you are four months old.
You are 15 pounds and 7 ounces.
Seriously kid, you are ridiculously cute.

Yesterday you got your 4 month vaccinations.
You were a champ! You only cried for 30 seconds and went back to sleep in my arms.
I am such a proud mama.

I love the little person you are becoming.

Grabbing at your toes, grabbing at my hair, jumping in your jumper like a pro, blowing endless bubbles, it seems that each day you are doing something new. 

Your favorite thing is cooing and talking, you wake up in the middle of night just to talk to yourself.

I wish you'd keep those conversations until morning. 

You love your Dad, your grandparents, and your Mama like whoa. 

You love smiling at strangers, brightening each persons day as we walk through the grocery store. 

You think raspberries on your belly are funny, and giggle when Mama pushes your feet to your face. 

You are the happiest baby in the whole wide world.

This month was full of adventure. 

We carted you around to Santa Cruz, San Francisco, and to your Grandparents houses. 

You put up with your parents silliness very well.

Exhibit A

You've thankfully stopped peeing on your Mom so much.

But, you still spit up like it's going out of style.

I'm excited for you to grow out of that soon. 

Your hair has gotten a lot lighter, it is a light brown with blonde underneath -- I'm so happy you're not bald. Your big ol' head would get very cold without hair!

This month you learned how to fight naps like a ninja. 

Getting you to nap is nearly impossible on a good day. 

You've become so aware of your surroundings that closing your eyes would mean you have to miss out on too many fun things going on around you!

But when you do sleep, it is the sweetest sight. 

You also don't like waking up in strange, unfamiliar places. You scream your little head off until you figure out that you're in your moms arms and that everything is a-ok. 

You have officially grown out of your 3 month clothing, and now your 3-6 month clothing. No more gaping V-necks for you. 

I was holding off on the 9 month clothes simply out of denial that you are getting so big, but alas, I gave in. 

You have become a tummy time pro. I am so glad. I was worried about you being able to hold up that big noggin of yours. 

You also have rolled a few times from your belly to your back, the look of surprise on your face when it happens is pretty awesome. 

You also have tons of toys, and love to play with them. 

It's so fun to see you interact with them, mostly by sticking them right into your mouth. 

You love to stand.

Your little legs are getting very strong indeed.

I bet you will skip crawling all together and start walking early. 

Let's hold off on that for a while,

I'm not quite ready for you to be mobile yet. 

Last weekend we went on a trip to San Francisco as a family.

I know you wont remember much of it, but we definitely will.

I will remember how you fought sleep the entire day, spit up all over my shirt, and ate like a beast.

I will also remember that when Grandma offers to babysit for such adventures, we will say yes next time. 

In the next few weeks you and I will travel to Portland to visit Auntie Mel and Auntie Ashley. 

I can't wait for you to meet your Auntie Mel, she is a gem and your Mamas BFF. 

And you get to go to her wedding later this year, your very first wedding!

I wept as I read the book "On the Night You Were Born" to you the other night. 

I thought about the anticipation leading up to your arrival, and seeing your sweet face for the first time, and the overwhelming amount of love that floods my heart for you. 

I used to think that the saying "my heart could burst" was just a silly saying, but honestly, you make my heart so full I really think it could burst.

Your cheesy grin, your big brown eyes, your laugh...I never thought those little things could overwhelm my heart the way they do. 

So whenever you doubt just how special you are
And you wonder who loves you, how much and how far,
Listen for geese honking high in the sky.
(They’re singing a song to remember you by.)
Or notice the bears asleep at the zoo.
(It’s because they’ve been dancing all night for you!)
Or drift off to sleep to the sound of the wind.
(Listen closely…it’s whispering your name again!)
If the moon stays up until morning one day,
Or a ladybug lands and decides to stay,
Or a little bird sits at your window awhile,
It’s because they’re all hoping to see you smile…
For never before in story or rhyme
(not even once upon a time)
Has the world ever known a you, my friend,
And it never will, not ever again…

And finally, Felix, you really are the best.

Life has changed for the better with you in it.

Even though some days are hard, and your mama is having a rough time adjusting, you make everything worth it. 

I love you,

Mama.