Tuesday, November 4, 2014

A Little While

My blog has been a very quiet place.
I know.
A few months ago when I said our lives were crazy, I didn't really know what crazy meant.
I think I do now.

Working part time, running a surprisingly successful business, running after an 11 month old.
Trying to keep a healthy marriage, trying to keep my house clean, trying trying trying.

Seth passed his a&p licensing tests and is now eligible for a full time job as an a&p (aircraft) mechanic.
He has been looking a ton, but because of his lack of experience it has been really tough to get anyone to call him back.

In the mean time we're scrambling to pay the bills for our TINY little apartment where the walls seem to be creeping in on us. We have so much stuff and so little space. Or is it really not that much stuff but just a tiny little space? I'm not quite sure.

I'd be lying if I told you it has been an easy couple of months. When we said our marriage vows two years ago, I didn't truly understand the "better or worse, richer or poorer" scenario. I do now. I'm doing my best to see the forest through the trees, but it's not easy. I've been too often defaulting on wine for dinner instead of feasting on scripture, searching for what the Lord has to say to me through this time.

Two weeks ago my therapist suggested moving in with our families to save money and spend time with them before we potentially have to move away for a job.
The idea, while appealing financially, was kind of lofty. I went home and brought it up with Seth, who wasn't very keen on it either. But, when we went home this past weekend and discussed it with my in-laws, moving home seemed to be the best plan of action. We would all save money, we would get to see each other more, and Felix would be able to have his own room at my parents house -- something Seth and I are desperate for.

So here we are, in the middle of the busy holiday and craft boutique season -- packing up our stuff in two short weeks and moving in with my parents. It is all happening so fast. I'm really sad to be leaving Gilroy. I finally have friends here. It took me two years to find friends in Gilroy and now we are moving away! I know friendships can last through the distance, but it's harder -- especially when my new friends also have babies.

It's amazing how fast things change. I'm anxious for the next phase of our lives. I know Seth can get a great job somewhere -- if they spend 5 minutes in an interview with him I know they would want to hire him right away. He has a potential job opportunity in Hillsboro, Oregon -- we are waiting to hear more information in the next couple of days. I feel like God is calling us away from the Bay Area for a while, but I'm trying not to mix up my feelings with God's call. So I'm going to stay quiet, and listen. I want to be content with our circumstances for the next few months and not angry that it's not my way.

I have been meditating on a verse in 1 Peter lately. Especially the words "a little while". We can do anything for 2 months or 2 years. And if it's going to be longer God will prepare us for that. We just have to trust Him. We will be established again. We will be restored. And until that day I will cling to the promise that He is before us, behind us, between us, and holding us together.

And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you. 
1 Peter 5:10 

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